Monday, February 25, 2019

Hari Pertama di Kota Madinah-Nov 2018

Bismillahirahmanirrahim. 

Assalamualaikum wbt. Harini, saya nak menulis tentang pengalaman saya menjejakkan kaki ke Kota Mandinah Al Munawwarah, di Arab Saudi, dalam kunjungan ziarah ke Kota Rasulullah SAW sepanjang tempoh kembara rohaniah di Arab Saudi. 

Perjalanan bermula pada Jumaat, 16 November 2018. 
Ini umrah pertama buat saya. Perasaan bercampur baur. Gembira, Takut. Sedih. 
Semuanya ada. 
Saya pergi dengan suami, mak dan ayah mertua, serta seorang adik ipar, Awa. 

Itinerary kami ke Madinah dulu, dan pulang dari Jeddah. 
Sewaktu mendarat di Kota Madinah, jam sudah lebih kurang pukul 10malam (waktu Saudi). 

Proses imigresen sangat sangat lah mudah. Syukur Allah mudahkan.
Saya jadi antara orang pertama dalam rombongan kami yg dapat keluar.
Sementara menunggu bagasi keluar, kami solat dulu. Ruang surau bersih dan selesa. 
Surau juga sama floor dengan ruang menunggu bagasi. 
Habis solat, bagasi dah siap di keluarkan dan kami menunggu ahli rombongan yang lain untuk menaiki bus. Bus yg disediakan oleh pihak Andalusia memang dah sedia menunggu. Airport pon tak terlalu sibuk sangat, jadi proses berjalan lancar untuk kesemua ahli rombongan. 

Dalam bus nak ke hotel, Ustaz Hafiz menceritakan serba sedikit tentang sejarah Kota Madinah. 
Dari kejauhan, dah boleh nampak terang benderang Kota Madinah Al Munawwarah ni. 
Bercahaya sgt. dengan langit malam yg indah. 
Kami melalui tepi Perkuburan Baqi', perkuburan ahli syurga sebelum sampai ke hotel. 

Selepas check in, semua ahli rombongan diberikan Nasi Arab dan air mineral sebelum masuk ke bilik masing2. Walaupun dah almost tengah malam, kitaorg makan jugak nasi arab yg sgt sedap tu. Lebih kurang jam 1pg, semua tidur dan kami bangun semula jam 3pg untuk bersiap2 ke Masjid Nabawi. 
Tak sabarnya rasa hati untuk berada sgt dekat dengan Baginda Rasulullah. 
Walaupun badan penat, tapi keseronokkan berada di Kota Madinah lain rasanya. 
Hilang penat bila dapat memasuki perkarangan Masjid Nabawi. 

Subuh pertama di Masjid Nabawi

Solat Subuh di sini tanpa bacaan doa Qunut. Jadi, tak perlu rasa hairan buat yg pertama kali mcm saya ni. Dewan solat mmg sgtlah penuh. tp Alhamdulillah kami dpt jugak berada di antara saf depan. Kebiasaannya, kami solat di dewan solat melalui pintu 16. 

Selepas solat subuh yg pertama di Masjid Nabawi. Pertama kali lihat langit seindah ini. 
Terlalu cantik. 
Kuasa Allah. MashaAllah Subahanallah. 
Sepadan namanya, Kota Bercahaya



Dengan Awa dan mak selepas solat subuh 


Usai solat subuh, kami pulang ke hotel, sarapan pagi dan berehat sekejap. 
Lebih kurang jam 8pg, kami berkumpul di lobby hotel yang telah dipajak oleh pihak Andalusia untuk dengar taklimat dari ustazah yg akan bawa kami masuk ke Raudhah! 
Raudhah ialah kawasan rumah Rasulullah SAW serta kawasan asal Masjid Nabawi. 
Tak sabarnya rasa nak berada dalam Raudhah. Taman Syurga.
Melalui bacaan saya sebelum ke Madinah, perlu ada strategi utk memasuki Raudhah bagi kaum Hawa memandangkan ruang yg diperuntukkan buat kaum Hawa di dalam Raudhah adalah kecil berbanding kaum lelaki, serta ada waktu tertentu sahaja dimana kita dibenarkan masuk.


Ustazah yg membawa ahli rombongan wanita ke Raudhah sarankan kami untuk masuk melalui pintu 25. Setiap kali nak masuk ke Masjid Nabawi, beg kita akan di check. Tak boleh bawa makanan yg berat2. Sekadar biskut dalam paket sahaja yg dibenarkan. 
Akan ada guard (wanita) yg menjaga di pintu masuk, setiap orang pasti akan diperiksa. Jadi untuk memudahkan proses dan melancarkan urusan, kita semua eloklah buka siap2 zip beg dan tunjukkan apa yg ada di dalam beg kita. Tak perlu beratur lama dan panjang untuk masuk ke ruang masjid. Selipar yg dipakai jugak, perlu dibawa masuk sekali. Jadi eloklah kalau bawa beg khas untuk selipar. Saya beruntung, sebab mak dah jahitkan siap2 dari Malaysia karung untuk kami letak selipar masing2. Kalau nak ditinggalkan di rak selipar pun boleh, cuma kena ambil risiko sekiranya selipar/kasut you all hilang. Terpaksa berkaki ayam pulak nak balik ke hotel. 

Sewaktu Ustazah membawa ahli rombongan ke Pintu 25, jam dah menunjukkan 9.30 pg. Sebenarnya waktu ni adalah waktu peak untuk masuk ke Raudhah. tp disebabkan rombongan agak besar, combine sekali dgn jemaah dari group lain, maka kami follow aje apa yg Ustazah dah sarankan. Ziarah ke Raudhah ini dinamakan Ziarah Dalam Masjid. 

Pertama kali ke Raudhah

Dari Pintu 25, kena tunggu di satu ruang solat. Sementara tunggu, dapt tunaikan Solat Dhuha. Kemudian semua berkumpul rapat2 dalam rombongan. Ada ramai kaum Hawa dari negera lain berkumpul ikut kumpulan masing2. Saya memang x ambil gambar sgt, sebab rasa berdebar-debar nak masuk ke Raudhah untuk pertama kali. 

Selepas tunggu dalam 20-30minit, guards lepaskan kumpulan kami ke check point seterusnya. Memasuki ke dewan yg lebih dalam (menghampiri kawasan asal masjid). Di sini, kami tunggu lagi for another 30 minutes. Ambil kesempatan untuk solat sunat dan baca Al Quran. 
Cabaran terhebat ialah nak memastikan wudhu terjaga dlm tempoh ni. 
Saya tewas jugaklah. Mujur dah siap sediakan botol wudhu , jadi boleh berwudhu di dalam masjid. 
Oh ya, di dalam Masjid Nabawi kawasan berwudhu di luar, sekali dengan kawasan tandas. Jadi, kalau dah keluar tu, susahlah nak tembuh masuk, dengan crowds yg sgt ramai menunggu giliran untuk masuk ke Raudhah. 



Sempat selfie sementara menunggu giliran ke Raudhah. Ini sewaktu di check point ke-2.

Selesai di check point ke 2, kami dapat arahan dari guards untuk berpindah ke kawasan check point ke-3. Di sini, kawasan nya lebih terbuka, dengan ada ruang yg open air (hanya ditutupi payung gergasi). Dari sini, jelas kelihatan kubah hijau. 


Sewaktu di check point ke-3. Kelihatan dengan jelas kubah hijau. Apa istimewanya kubah hijau ini?
Di bawah kubah inilah bersemadinya kekasih Allah Swt., Rasulullah SAW junjungan kita, Nabi kita. serta dua sahabat baginda iaitu Saidina Abu Bakar As Siddiq dan Saidina Umar bin Al Khattab. 

Di dalam Masjid Nabawi, keseluruhan karpet bewarna merah dgn corak bunga, sama mcm dlm gambar di atas ni. Tapi, ketika kita memasuki Raudhah, karpetnya bewarna hijau lembut, dgn corak yg sama. Ini khas untuk membezakan kawasan Raudhah dan keseluruhan Masjid Nabawi. Selepas menunggu di check point ke-3 ni kira2 dlm 20 minit, kumpulan kami di panggil ke check point ke-4. Betul2 berhadapan Raudhah, dan merupakan kawasan terakhir. Waktu tu jam dah hampir 11pg. Duduk dlm keadaan berhimpit dan sedikit sesak, jadi kesabaran mmg sgt diperlukan.
Tambah lagi ada juga ahli kumpulan yg sedang menahan untuk buang air kecil, sakit lutut dan sebagainya.Kasihan melihat mereka yg dah berusia, gagahkan diri untuk memasuki Raudhah. Sewaktu di sini, kumpulan dari Asia di bahagikan pada satu bahagian/check point.
Yang dari Pakistan, India satu bahagian. Begitu jugak kumpulan dari Afrika dan Arabs. 
Nampak seperti berpuak-puak. Tapi, tujuan sebenarnya untuk memastikan keselamatan semua pihak. 
Maklumlah, kita dari Asia/Asia Tenggara ni tubuh badan kecil molek dibandingkan dengan wanita dari negara Afrika dan Arab. Selain kecil molek, sifat wanita Asia yg lemah lembut, gemalai memainkan peranan juga berbanding dengan kaum wanita dari benua India yg agak kasar orangnya dan tidak peduli apa terjadi. 
Bila dibahagikan ikut kumpulan begini, giliran dari Asia memang sedikit lambat, tp keselamatan dan keselesaan terjamin. 

Lebih kurang jam 11 pagi, baru kumpulan kami dilepaskan untuk memasuki Raudhah. Kaki sy bergerak mengikut arus manusia yg sangat ramai. Tak sempat untuk sy lihat sekeliling rupa keadaan di dalam Raudhah kerana terlalu ramai umat manusia. 
Kami solat berkepung2. Mulanya saya solat 2 rakaat, di kepung oleh Awa dan mak. Bergilir2 begitu, termasuk dengan beberapa orang ahli jemaah lain dari kumpulan kami dan dari Indonesia. 
Tidak boleh berlama-lamaan untuk duduk berdoa di sini, kerana risiko tinggi untuk dipijak (tanpa sengaja) kerana keadaan yg sesak dan sgt padat. Nak sujud pun kita redah aje tundukkan kepala ke karpet, walaupun tak nampak tempat yg nak disujud. 
Walaupun keadaan sgt sesak, Alhamdulillah, kami bertiga dapat solat sunat 4 rakaat di dalam Raudhah. 

Keadaan di dalam Raudhah. Yg memakai telekung putih bercorak bunga ni semuanya jemaah dari Indonesia. Telekung diorang semua seragam. Nampak sikit karpet hijau dalam gambar ni. 

Selepas itu kami minta izin Ustazah untuk pulang ke hotel walaupun ahli kumpulan yg lain akan meneruskan lawatan ke sekitar masjid, memandangakn mak kelihatan agak letih selepas bersesak-sesak tadi. Dan kami pun rasa nak berehat sekejap sebelum masukkanya waktu Zohor. 

Pada waktu yg sama, kaum lelaki jugak melalukan ziarah luar dan dalam masjid. Kaum lelaki lebih mudah, kerana tiada had waktu untuk mereka memasuki Raudhah. its open 24 hours for them.

 
Ustaz Hafiz bersama jemaah lelaki menunjukkan kawasan sekitar Masjid Nabawi

Ustaz Hafiz dan rombongan lelaki di Sokaifat Bani Saedah. Sebuah taman di sebelah Masjid Nabawi ,tempat berlakunya mesyuarat antara Kaum Ansar dan Muhajirin selepas kewafatan Baginda Rasulullah SAW. Kisah nya di sini, selepas Rasul SAW wafat, dua kaum ini berbincang siapa yg layak untuk menjadi pemimpin mereka di Kota Madinah. Waktu ni, jenazah Baginda Rasul belum disempurnakan lagi, namun demi menggalas tanggungjawab sebagai para sahabat, Saidina Omar dan Saidina Abu Bakar, tinggalkan jenazah Baginda untuk sertai mesyuarat ni, demi memastikan agama islam terjaga dan tidak berlaku perbalahan antara kaum. 


Selepas berehat sekejap, kami ke Masjid Nabawi semula untuk solat Zuhur berjemaah. Usai solat dan mengaji Al-Quran, kami pulang ke hotel untuk makan tengah hari, take a nap dan ke masjid semula untuk Solat Asar berjemaah. 

Usai Solat Asar, kami ambil kesempatan melihat sekitar kawasan luar Masjid Nabawi. 

Saya dan suami selepas solat Asar yg pertama di Masjid Nabawi. 



Saya akan sambung semula di entry lain ye. 

Wassalam. Doakan kita semua dijemput pergi lagi ke Bumi Madinah dan Mekah. 

Love,
Athi

Tips for research proposal defense

Assalamualaikum,

After about 7 months registered as a PhD student, I managed to present my research proposal for the proposal defense on 15th February 2019. It was Friday morning and was attended by three panels.

Started at around 10.10am and end up at 11.30.
Almost 1 hr 30 minutes jugaklah.

Of course, I was sweating throughout the presentation and can't wait for the final slide to appear on the screen.

I had actually submitted my research proposal to the panels of examiners on 30th Jan, allowing them at least two weeks to go through the proposal in written format.

Overall, I passed the proposal and the examiners agreed with what has been proposed.

They also suggested some improvement in the methodology, to be more quantitative in terms of extracting the porosity values using QI and velocity data.
I am yet to explore on that part.

It was a relief somehow that I passed the RPD without much alteration on the proposal but also explains that I only have 2.5 yrs to go.  Alhamdulillah and Allahuakbar.

No picture was taken on this day, haha.

If you asked me for tips to do RPD, a little I can share are listed below:

1. Wake up early that morning. If possible, make it a routine to wake up early.
If you are a Muslim, perform Tahajud Prayer and make lots of doa.
Recite Al-Quran. This will help you to feel calm.

2. Had a glance through at your presentation slides around 1-2 hrs before the real presentation.

3. Upload your slides and proposal in any drive on the internet. I used OneDrive.
You can also opt for GoogleDrive, Dropbox etc. This will be your back-up.

4. Download the slides from the drive, into the computer at the presentation room. Avoid using USB in public used computer. To reduce the chances of virus/malware transfer. Go through the slides once more in the presentation room. If the room is not available a few hrs before the presentation, try to familiarize the room a few days before the presentation.

5. Make sure your research proposal in written format is ready prior to the presentation, even if the examiners did not read it, it shows that you are ready
It also made you look more confident.

6. It would be great if you have preliminary results, or testing analysis and present it during the proposal defense. With this, the examiners can really see how far you are in your research and to give more confidence in your proposed methods.

7. It is very OK if your preliminary results are not what you expected. If it is showing the unexpected way from what you actually want, report it. Make sure not to repeat the same mistake, procedures, investigate it. This is what we call as research.

8.  Literature review: Be critical. Do not just cite and rephrase. Example: There are several proposed models by different authors. Mentioned all (or if too much, the most significant to your area), then state which model do you prefer, and why. Also mention that throughout your research, you will be based on this model etc. Same goes to several opinions in some matters.

9. Do not argue with the examiners. Keep calm if they did not agree with what you presented. Say politely your opinions and thanked them for giving the feedbacks(even if it is lame feedback).

10. Smile. Hide your nervousness and dress well to keep yourself confident. after all, you are the subject matter of expert for the research you plan to conduct.


Till then,

Love,
Athi

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

How did I end up being a PhD student?

Assalamualaikum semua.

It has been very looooong time since I last wrote anything related to academic in this blog. In fact, blog ni pon sendu semacam dah. No one reads blog nowadays. We prefers social media like Insta and Facebook. Well, since blogspot still wujud, I would just write something la for the record.

I am now a PhD student. It's one of the biggest decision in my life! Hahah, sounds so difficult kan nak buat decision utk embark to this stage of life. Takut wei nak buat PhD. Because I'm afraid of failure and at this stage of life, at 31 years old, with three kids who had actually started schooling, comfortable job (eh?), I think deciding to further my study to higher level is a bit crazy! Even though ramai je orang lain buat , even some of them pjj from their husband or family while furthering their higher degree.

How did I end up at this stage of life huh?

First, the main suspect is my husband! Yup, he pushed me to say yes to PhD study. He did motivate initially, giving me some motivational words (not some--its buckets of motivational words) since 2014 for me to just start my PhD straight away after completing my MSc. Indeed, I;m not ready at all at that time. So he is the one who pursue for his PhD a yr later, 2015.

Looking at him and few other friends who are doing their PhD part time, I rasa...no way man. I can't take the pressure as a PhD student and still working as a lecturer. So I waited if my employee would like to sponsor their staff who wants to further study.

That hope was left hanging for the next three years. Some of my friend resign from work, found scholarship and flew overseas for their PhD. free and easy decision. Some do it in local universities, part time basis, or taking unpaid leave. While, my husband continue being motivated and do his PhD part time while still working. So inspiring being surrounded by them, unfortunately, I am not able to bring myself for that decision of doing PhD part time basis especially while my husband is also struggling with his own PhD.

2017, an email came from our HR and informing us we can apply for Staff Development Program to further our PhD in UTP, with fully sponsored and monthly salary still jalan as usual. Being me, not confident to further my PhD, my husband pushed me to apply for this scheme. Aiyooo, scary nye nak start the application, but I just try la because the offers rarely came in nowadays.

First of all, I have to apply as a student in my own workplace. Tettttt, that's the main challenge.
At the same time, I also applied for the Staff Development Program (SDP).
For SDP, I need to go through readiness interview.
Date for the interview was set up and I waited almost three hours for my turn to be interviewed When the time comes, the interviewers told me it is better to post-poned as the timing had become late evening. OK- down a bit lah, coz we already prepare kan.

reschedule interview, no ghost bump coz kononnya I'm ready lah. Bring along my proposal for PhD that my husband forced me to write. hahaha. What a forcer you are abang oi.

I will remember this interview forever in my life.. coz i cried! literally cried tersedu sedan sampai merah muka, keluaq ayaq idung semua. gila weh malu. tp u know the questioned me on my ability physically and mentally to take the difficulties as a PhD student, when my husband is also furthering his PhD, and my kids already started schooling, with baby too.

I don't know why did I cry and become very emotional during the interview because actually I (we) had been thinking of these things especially about our kids since three years ago, and thats one of my main barrier for not furthering PhD straight away is my kids. I don't think I am able to be fair for them when I'm doing my PhD.

But, being asked this question by the interviewers, of course I felt emotional. How on Earth u guys know my biggest fear? They don't even have any objections with my PhD proposal, in fact they like it, recommend it worth for a PhD thesis. But they are more concern about my personal capability to handle my family and my study. huhuhu, they hit my weak spot.

I continue crying even until I'm out of the interview room. And I sat on the bench, still crying and one of the interviewer came across to give me some comfort word. Malu nye Ya Allah... satu uni tau I emotional gila pagi tu.

I thought I failed that readiness interview. But turn out, I was recommended. Mmg saje je la dorang kan. I was recommended to further my PhD in the next two semesters, as the interviewers want to give some time so that my husband can start writing while I'm starting my PhD.


Because of the above, I had another relaxing interview with Human Resource Boss, just to make I betul2 ready. Berdebar tetap sama jugakla, menghadap boss kan. After that I went to research methodology course and need to do mock-rpd.
From there I had to also present my research proposal to the research institutes' directors and the vice chancellor research to make sure my research is allign with the university's research directions.
It was one of the most terifying presentation in my life coz I'm presenting to Professors, many of them in that room at one time. Luckily, I passed and here I am, as a PhD student.

I registered as a PhD student on 11th July 2018.
It has been almost 2 months now.


11 July 2018



the forcer @ supporter 


Progress?

Hm.

mcm x de je.

let's see.

oh btw, I am granted with three years study leave. I hope it is enough for me to complete my PhD.

i have few challenges already..but I save it for later post, maybe...

till then, adios.

Thursday, July 5, 2018

Kisah Pengasuh - Part 1

Assalamualaikum semua,

3 Julai 2018-4 Julai 2018
2 hari di mana hati semua rakyat Malaysia dirobek sedih dan pilu dengan berita pemergian adik Adam Rayqal (Al Fatihah buatmu sayang) yang dijumpai mati dalam keadaan disumbat di dalam beg bewarna hijau di dalam peti ais bahagian sejuk beku, di rumah PENGASUH!

Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. Buat mama dan papa Adam, Puan Farah Madihah dan En Mohd. Sufi, takziah diucapkan. Sesungguhnya mmg kalian yg terpilih dan pasti hikmahnya sangat besar. Doa dan solat hajat saya titipkan buat kalian, walaupun kita tidak pernah kenal, tapi kita punya hati dan perasaan yg sama kasihnya pada seorang anak. Doa saya, semoga Allah sentiasa kuatkan hati kalian agar dpt menjalani hari2 selepas ini dgn penuh ketabahan, semoga Allah mudahkan urusan2 kalian dan keadilan yang setimpal diterima oleh si pembunuh anak kalian.

No one wants to be in your situation, indeed. And no human being is able to think of this situation. Hanya Allah Swt yang Maha Mengetahui.

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Seumur hidup saya, perkataan pengasuh & penjaga itu sangat lah sinonim. Terlalu dekat dengan diri saya dan keluarga saya.

Saya dilahirkan dalam keluarga yg sederhana pendapatannya, dan emak saya seorang yg bekerjaya. Habis cuti bersalin, saya telah dihantar ke rumah jiran, utk diasuh dan dijaga sementara emak bekerja. Waktu itu, emak tak mampu pun nak beli pump susu, jadi emak tanggung sakitnya bengkak susu sementara di pejabat, sehinggalah petang menjelma, baru lah emak dapat susukan saya. Ingatan saya terhadap pengasuh pertama dalam hidup saya kurang jelas, sebab saya masih bayi lagi. I remember, she is seorang yg agak berusia, rumahnya rumah kayu jenis rumah kampung. Baik orang. Mungkin nama dia Tok Bi. wallahualam.

Kemudian, kami berpindah dan saya dapat adik baru, Imran. Emak hantar saya dan Imran ke rumah jiran, tak jauh dari rumah kami. Allahuakbar! ini antara pengalaman buruk dalam kehidupan kanak2 saya dan Imran. Adik mungkin tak berapa ingat sebab dia masih baby. Kami tak dijaga dengan baik. Imran mengalami masalah kesihatan yg agak serius bila telinga dia bernanah, bila setiap hari adik dibiarkan minum susu secara sendirian sedangkan dia baru berusia 2-3 bulan waktu tu. Mak cik pengasuh hanya letakkan kain napkin sebagai alas di bawah botol susu, supaya botol susu berada dlm keadaan sedikit senget dan adik akan sedut sendiri. Susu akan mengalir keluar dari tepi bibir ke pipi dan masuk ke dalam telinga Imran demam dan di sahkan ada nanah di dalam telinga. Saya pula, berusia 4 tahun waktu itu. Ingat lagi anak sulung mak cik pengasuh tu seorang lelaki. Dia dah besar. Rasanya dah habis spm kot. Dia selalu ajak saya main2, bawa ke bilik. Tak sanggup saya nak tulis panjang di sini, ingatan saya pun tak berapa nak jelas waktu ni. Yg saya paling ingat, saya mengadu sesuatu pada mak dan ayah, kemudian sepantas kilat kami semua dah berada di Klinik Arfah (klinik wanita). Dan saya ingt doktor buat pemeriksaan ke atas badan saya, kemudian cakap2 dengan mak dan ayah. Lepas tu, besoknya, saya dan Imran dah tak ke rumah mak cik tu lagi. Bila dah besar, terkenang kan memori ni, saya fahamlah apa yg terjadi. Syukur, tiada yg tak diingini berlaku pada saya sebagai seorang budak perempuan. I was a victim! And syukur adik tak tersedak susu sampai sesak nafas dan sebagainya. This mak cik, is still living in our neigborhood and I still can't look at her in the face or even talk to her. After all, she is a very frightening , fat women.


Kemudian, saya dan adik di hantar ke pengasuh lain, yg duduk di kampung berdekatan taman kami. Pesara. Pasangan atok dan nenek. Baik orang nya, saya ingt nama suami pengasuh ni Pak Long Majid. Kami duduk di situ kejap je, sampai saya darjah satu.

Lepas darjah satu, kebiasaannya saya akan tinggal sendirian di rumah selepas waktu persekolahan. Kadang2 saya akan join Imran di rumah pengasuh. Waktu darjah 1, pengasuh dah bertukar ke salah seorang mak cik di taman perumahan kami. Mak cik Salmah namanya. Suami dia Pak cik Abdullah. Tinggal di flat depan rumah teres kami.
Mak cik Salmah ni ada seorang anak lelaki, dalam 2-3 tahun tua dari saya. Sekolah yg sama dengan saya. Imran memang full time di rumah mak cik Salmah, saya pulak on off. Bila saya dah masuk darjah 3 (9 tahun) and Imran 5 thun, saya selalu akan amik Imran dari rumah mak cik Salmah selepas saya balik sekolah, dan akan bawa Imran pulang ke rumah kami. Kami akan tinggal berdua di rumah sampailah mak dan ayah balik kerja. Saya tak suka Imran duduk di rumah mak cik Salmah tu sbb dia suka marah2. Garang orangnya. Kalau kami nak makan, kena duduk dekat dapur je,tak boleh dekat depan TV. Dapur rumah flat,faham2 lah sempit sangat. Anak dia boleh pulak duduk depan tv, tidur kat ruang tamu etc. Kami mmg akan duduk dalam satu bilik je. Kesian Imran sbb dia paling lama duduk dengan mak cik Salmah ni. Masa saya darjah 3 ni, mak dah sarat nak lahirkan adik seorang lagi, Amir.
Ada satu hari tu, saya bergaduh besar dgn anak pengasuh ni. Nama dia Hafiz. saya tak ingat puncanya apa, tp Hafiz ni cakap Imran lembap, bodoh dan macam2 perkataan yg tak elok. Saya tak tau mana datang keberanian, tangan saya laju je menampar muka si Hafiz ni! Memang geram dan marah sangat masa tu, sbb dia kutuk dan treat Imran mcm tu. I just pick up Imran from that house and terus bawa balik ke rumah kami, sambil menangis2 sedih orang buat adik macam tu. Bila mak dan ayah balik dari kerja, saya ceritakan semuanya, dan mak dan ayah pergi jumpa mak cik Salmah minta maaf dan sebagainya. And that's the last time I go to mak cik Salmah house. I have been seeing her few times nowadays, she will smile, and I will smile. But, sorry mak cik Salmah, you are too arrogant and terlalu sayangkan anak tunggal u sampai everything else is wrong and your son is the only person in this world yang betul. Look, what happened to him now? I don;t want to share its none of my business.

Selepas kejadian tu, I know my parents was in very big problem, as new baby is coming out any time , and they don't have some one to take care of the new baby, and Imran (who is still not schooling). I am the one yg ruin their plan. But, Allah is greater. Mak and ayah bertemu dgn Pak Cik Man and Mak Cik Zah, who took care of Amir from 2months old and Imran until he is in primary school. I rarely stay at Mak Cik Zah's house. I will just drop by on my way back from school to see my two brothers and eat lunch at her house. Then, I will continue cycling to our house. Everyday, I will cycle, about 1km one way to school from my house, for 6 years! Since then, Mak cik Zah has been the best pengasuh untuk Imran dan Amir, and also Izzat, my youngest brother, until he is 5 yrs old and my mom transferred him to taska. Amir and Izzat sometime even sleep at her house, and followed her to their family events etc. We still keep in touch with this family until now. Imran stayed there until he is almost standard 4 or 5, before he followed my style to be independent after school.


This is our story about our pengasuh- My Siblings and I.




Thursday, June 28, 2018

Raya 2018

Assalamualaikum you all sekalian, 

Hari ni dah masuk 14 Syawal. I hope it's not too late for me to wish Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin untuk semua. 

2018 raya falls on Friday, so continue with weekend and both of us amik extra another 5 days break to be with our families from Penang, Kedah and Terengganu. Puas beraya kali ni, cuma makan raya je kurang puas coz berjaga-jaga takut berat badan naik banyak and susah nak turun. hahah, itu pon try portion control and limit kan my sugary water intake je. 

2018, giliran raya in my parents' house on the first raya. 

My mini family tema warna yellow mustard. 
My dad and mum brown-pink while adik2 only Imran cannot join us on the first day of raya coz he had to be on standby dekat estate. 
Izzat was wearing full set green baju melayu while Amir was wearing only top baju melayu in khakis colour. 


After solat sunat Aidilfitri and a round of makan nasi tomato at home, we all went to Kak Bi's and Abg Nayan's house dkt flat in front of my parents' house. Kak Bi was the one who took care of me when my mum when to work and I was in pantang. 

Then, we balik Penang Island to my grandmother's house. My cousin from KL pon balik. 

With Nadia, my closest cousin. We are now working under the same company! what a coincidence sangat and I'm sure tok must be very happy to hear this. By the way that's not her baju raya tau. She was wearing something else until petang she decided to be in our grandmother's baju kedah and kain batik coz it was very hot outside. Dah petang baru we feel like nak keluar rumah to take photos. 


On the second day of raya, I am wearing baju kurung pahang , classic pattern with sulam. 
My mum belikan the kain from Vietnam early this year. 

In my dad's kampung visiting my uncles and aunties. 

In front on Tok Jang's house in Kulim. 

It was a long day and full of visiting relatives. Banyak gambar xsempat ambil pon. 

Third day of raya, awal2 pagi my dad went out to pasar and mum started cooking. Coz we will be receiving guests to our house for raya visit. 

I started the day by visiting my cikgu sekolah rendah since standard 1. 

Also xde picture because I was a bit shy to ask her to take photos since it has been sometime since I last meet her. 

In the afternoon, Izyan came with her big family. 

My high school friend with our kids. She is not residing in Singapore, an architect!



Malam pulak after Maghrib, my relatives from my mum's side come. Tok, maksu, makteh and aunty did not come coz tok was not so well. Mamaran and Nadia as well Bamahmud dah balik KL. 

It was full day and tiring but enjoyable. The next morning, we depart from BM to Terengganu at 4.10am. 

My kids sleeping in the car throughout our wee hours journey to terengganu. 


Once we arrive in Bukit Payong at my in law's house, terus siap2 nak pergi beraya. Really a tiring day but again, full of happiness. We visited Suwook and Kilong on the 4th raya. 
With Imani, my only daughter's at Suwook's


And Iyaadh finally slept at Suwook's. Pity him. Penat travel and terus pergi beraya. 


On the 5th raya, we were very excited to go to Aunty Ayu's open house. Food kat situ semua sedap,and her cookies raya also the best la. we ordered tiga balang from her too. 
but that morning, KB family pon datang visit so mak was cooking pulut kuning with chicken rendang. Sedap gila but manage to keep myself alert not to go overboard. so makan sekali je. tp menyesal now coz sedap nya pulut kuning mak. 



With KB Family. Extended family members on my husband side from KB



My kids getting ready for Aunty Ayu's open house

Cucu perempuan HD

Cucu lelaki HD





Gambar dkt rumah aunty ayu takde pulak . don't know where but all of us did take pictures dkt rumah aunty ayu sbb her decorations sgt exlusive gitu. I had my migraine attack dkt situ coz the music was very loud.

the rest of the days were spent in my in law's lepak2 until saturday kitaorg balik and sleep over in Janda Baik.

It was a very well spent Eid Holiday for us.



Monday, June 11, 2018

8 years!

Alhamdulillah, today is our 8th years anniversary!

Masha Allah.
Alhamdulillah
Allahuakbar.

All the praises to Him, for lending this guy to by my husband for the last 8 years, and Insya Allah till the end of my life, and shall be meeting him again in Jannah.

To be honest, it's end of Ramadhan and both of us are very occupied with our daily agenda, reciting Quran, go to work, doing our responsibilities at home and in the office.

I squeeze some time to prepare this video so that at least we can do a little throwback to see how far we had go together as husband and wife.


We went to Pakeeza for buffet ramadhan two days earlier to treat ourselves with indian food and the kids also enjoyed it.

No more fancy gifts, fancy wishes. We are trying to save for our 10th year anniversary! insya Allah one major travel trip for us and the kids. semoga all of us panjang umur, sihat dan dirahmati Allah selalu.



Monday, May 7, 2018

Impetigo


Assalamualaikum semua, 

Saya nak bercerita tentang pengalaman saya menguruskan anak yg diserang Impetigo, sejenis penyakit kulit. Kejadian ini berlaku lebih kurang setahun yang lalu. Dah lama gambar-gambar ni berada dalam draft, cuma sekarang saya tergerak hati untuk share pada public. Harapnya dapat memberi sedikit bantuan untuk parents yang mencari maklumat berkaitan penyakit kulit ni. 

First of all, apa tu Impetigo? 

Sebenarnya, impetigo ni mcm kudis. tapi jenis kudis yg timbul seperti ruam, kemudian, nampak seperti ada air dekat dlm ruam tu. Bila ruam tu pecah, air tersebut (or air bisa) akan merebak. menyebabkan bahagian kulit yg terkena air bisa tersebut akan jadi mcm berkuping, warna seakan2 rose gold. kuping tersebut, sekiranya di tarik utk dibuang/bersihkan, akan menyebabkan kulit kelihatan menjadi lebih nipis. Kuping2 tersebut boleh membesar sehingga lebih besar dari duit syiling 50 sen (yang design lama). 



Ini rupanya bahagian kulit yg terkena jangkitan impetigo. Asal nya luka yg kelihatan ni sebesar ruam/jerawat sahaja ye. 
Once merebak, dia akan membesar dan membersar. 
Pada mulanya, sebelum berjumpa pakar kanak2, saya balut luka ni, utk elakkan dia terkena baju yg anak pakai. Rupanya, itu satu kesalahan besar! 

JANGAN BALUT LUKA IMPETIGO! 

Bila kita balut, luka lambat kering, dah air bisa akan melekat pada kain yg digunakan utk balut, hence, melajukan lagi proses utk impetigo berjangkit dekat bahagian badan yg lain.

Sebenarnya, sebelum anak saya terkena impetigo ni, dua-tiga hari sebelum tu, saya sudah pun berjumpa pakar kanak2 yg sama, untuk kes anak cirit birit. Masa tu, saya dah perasan ada ruam2 kecil baru mula tumbuh di bawah ketiak anak saya. Saya ada tunjukkan pada doktor, dah doktor cakap cuma ruam biasa, heat rash. sebab belum nampak air bisanya. 

But, lepas balik tu, sebabkan anak kuat berpeluh, dia akn garu2 bahagian badan dia, makan ruam tersebut tercalar, dah cepatlah merebak ke bahagian dada/perut. 
Saya bawa ke klinik panel berhampiran rumah, doctor bagi ubat ruam. 

Bila saya tengok keadaan luka yg makin merebak dan jenis yg berkuping lain dari kebiasaannya, saya terus bawa jumpa pakar semula. Sah, Impetigo!



Ini masa menunggu nak jumpa pakar, Alhamdulillah walaupun kena Impetigo, si anak tak ada demam. Dia pon x merengek sebab sakit etc di bahagian yg mengelupas tu. Menurut doktor, luka tersebut tak sakit dan tak akan meninggalkan parut. 

Memang betul, lepas treatment dengan antibiotics ( I can't remember the type of medicine the doctor had prescribed since it has been a year past), tak ada scar langsung pada badan anak saya. kembali gebu seperti biasa, alhamdulillah. 


Punca terjadi nya impetigo ni dari persekitaran. 
Saya suspect, Iyaadh terkena impetigo semasa dalam perjalanan kami pulang dari terengganu ke perak. 

Kami memang letak kan Iyaadh di dalam car seat almost sepanjang perjalanan. 
Mungkin car seat tersebut kurang bersih dan bila di dlam perjalanan, dia berpeluh, dan naik ruam panas dan digaru2, maka ruam tersebut dijangkita kuman yg ada dekat car seat tu. 
Dari ruam biasa bertukar jadi Impetigo. Wallahualam. 

Apepun, saya harap perkongsian ini dapat membantu serba sedikit orang yg mencari maklumat ini. 

Sekian you all.