You raise me up

"Kakak, susah tak study?"

"Kakak ok ke?"

"Kesian anak ayah, penat...."


I miss the person who always ask me these kind of questions wherever I saw him..

Kadang kadang rasa ayah treat me like a school kid, despite of I'm having kids on my own already.

Bila balik rumah ayah, ayah akan cuba sedaya upaya utk make sure I am not struggling to live. Ayah redha and restu je bila anak sulung dia tibe tibe nak berenti kerja dan sambung belajar. Walhal, he was the most excited person in the world bila anak dia dapat kerja. Kerja 'besar' la waktu itu, kata orang.

Ayah orang paling risau (selain mak) bila anak perempuan tunggal dia dua kali masuk operation room. Tapi dia buat-buat cool je.

Sometimes, honestly I feel like ayah suka tanya soalan yg dia dah tahu jawapannya. Or perhaps, he just wanted to hear the real truth from my mouth. But myself, always tak nak risaukan ayah, will answer it the other way round...


"Kakak, susah tak study?"

- Ok je...study mana2 pun susah jugak. kerja pun susah jugak...

"Kakak ok ke?"

-Ok je. I'm happy. 

"Kesian anak ayah, penat...."

- Biasala tu yah...nak buat camne..InsyaAllah semua ok je.


Setiap soalan ayah, I will answer ok je...mesti ayah tak puas hati dgn jawapan tu..but I believe when I answer that way, ayah will stop worrying about me..about my kids...

My dad, never asks me bila kakak nak habis study... thanks for that ayah..kakak memang tak de specific answer for this question...huhu..I'm trying....

Bila teringat, since day 1 at school...ayah orang yg sentiasa ada..mak jugak...
day 1 at school, ayah teman waktu rehat. he bought me nasi lemak sebab kesian tgk anak dia makan buah jambu je waktu rehat.
sepanjang kat kinddy ayah tolong pakaikan tudung pagi2 sebab mak keluar rumah lebih awal. mak kerja jauh waktu tu.

well...to write about him, i need days...perhaps months...

he is definitely a person who raise me up through my ups and downs...together with mak..

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be

That's my dad.


*should call him now*