tension kerja!!!

so damn tension smlm sbb kerja! mcm2 jadi..arghhhh..
nasib baik petang2 got good news and got to see good things...
btw welcome to the family mr new TW9!!!!

matter of fact that......

1- I want to be a student. I mean like have my own study table in university and do research in topics that I think I can handle such as:-
a) carbonate/sedimentary related topics
b) climate changing related
c) non-engineering things such as structural geology
d) environmental related topic but not so geochemistry





2- I need sponsorship in order for me to continue my study.
(so anybody can help me? )

3- I need time and effort to start doing my so-called thesis so that when people ask, I have idea what to be research on...not just bercakap like tin kosong...
(this part really need an effort to start!)

pre-PMS or friday symptoms ?

right or not, i don't care. just need to list it down.cause im way too tertekan secara tiba-tiba tanpa sebab-sebab yang munasabah...

1) i get easily distracted with my work today.not distracted by fb but by the mood to stay out of this office. to be only alone with my fiance.

2) i get mad at myself when i can't understand what is my boss telling me. because i think i am very not brilliant since the thing he teach me is very simple

3) i get annoyed at people who smoked and blow the asap in front of other ppl face

4) i get annoyed when i can't get things correct. (sungguh bersifat perfectionist di sini)

5) i want to merajuk all the way but i end up searching for that particular person jugak.

-it turn out to be better after i talked and membebel to my fiance.this make me feel more blessed and more confident that he's the only one send to me by Allah to lead me in this world-

new chapter-thank u all-

harini, sudah hampir seminggu sy menjadi tunangan orang (ayat org melayu)
macam tak percaya tapi ia benar-benar..
Alhamdulillah,semunya okay.majlis pada minggu lepas berjalan dgn lancar dan meriah.semua yg datang hanyalah di kalangan keluarga di sebelah mak dan ayah saya serta keluarga tunang sy dari Terengganu, KL and Penang.
budak2 sgt ramai memeriahkan majlis.dan evertyhing went smooth and well.I was very glad and happy and feel a blessed. Thanks to my mum and dad for making it happening for me.
It went the way I dream and the way I want. Thank You to all my cousins and aunties for helping dan juga menyumbangkan hantaran2 ...menjadikan hantaran dari pihak perempuan sgt banyak..
Thank you jugak to pihak lelaki yg skrg dah macam my own family.
as a tunang orang, kenala rasanya menjaga tata tertib sedikit.peringatan utk diri sndiri jugak la.apepun, there will be more n more things and experience to explore in this new chapter of my life. Pray the best and ingat Allah selalu...insyaAllah

not to forget, welcome to the world my new niece (anak bakal kakak ipar saya) Alesya Farzana Mohd Hafiz...


below is the link for photographer time tunang aritu: http://srimawarcollection.blogspot.com/

this is for you

u r the one who make me look like a kid
u r the one who make me feel so flushing red when it comes to things i feel blush
u r the one who make me dance alone in front of the mirror
u r the one who make me jump up and down on the mattress like mr bean
u r the one who make me talk to my self before i go out

u r the one who scold me for acting like a teenager
u r the one who remind me to behave when i am high sugaring after a cup of coke
u r the one who stares me till i get blush on both cheeks
u r the one who make me turn to the right every time i was in the car with u

u r the one who can speaks the word in my head without i have to tell u
u r the one who can tell the whole story by looking at my face
u r the one i belonged...
thank you mister

the art of heart

wisely said, this month should be the one of the greatest month in my life since ....
1) im turning 23 last 2nd february
2) im getting engaged to the man i love the end of this month (InsyaAllah)

but to achieve both situations, i've been going through lots of emotional achieving and distractions. all of them make me realize how world is around me. and how should one act to different situations. i just want to be me.

and what i can say is..its growing deeper and more passionate.its growing matured and more stronger. its growing to be great later on.

too much hope, so many things

i've been quite busy lately with my first processing project which dealing with 3D marine seismic in block PM308, offshore Peninsular Malaysia.

though I have no interest with this processing job but as times goes by, i have to face it jugak.no choice maaa..but as long as money been cash in into my account each month and i have job, that will be more than enough for now.Alhamdulillah. other people may sees me as very lucky this whole 2009 but there are obstacles to face too. and they were unusually different. people sees that im lucky to get this job in a so called overseas company after being so called 'released' by petronas (which somehow a blessed and a disaster), got to go overseas for 3months training, got paid and further more got a project now..

And i let others say what they think bout my fate and how lucky i am. they have they right to feel good about it, or to envy me.. and as a friend, as a person, i don't mind telling them advices when they are in difficult situations like those i was in before.sometime i feel i am the choosen one, the selected one to face the obstacles that Allah always knows I can handle it.

As nature of a geology student, I am more interested in interpretation than processing. But i must admit processing give me different view of interpreting geological subsurface. and as i grown up (im turning 23 soon! gosh) and i viewed life in different ways from i viewed before, im thinking of teaching in university. i know it won't be as easy as i think.everything have obstacles but I will be in the world I belong too, the world I love too, and I will surely have more time for my future family.

I have so many things list up in my mind. I have so many plans to be done, I have so many hopes and I also have many responsibilities...other people have it as welll (but this is my blog, so I care for mine only)...but luckily I got very supportive and understanding parents, boyfriend, brothers and sisters, nieces and nephews..i think, people can envy me on this part, i feel so lucky to be surrounded by them every day.

my wish before ending this entry is that, Allah will permudahkan everything lay down ahead of me and my future husband..and also to make it easier to my parents and brothers.