Friday, October 29, 2010

blame the hormones

gosh! what happened to me these two days?
i was so emotionally unstable.
simple slight things make me hurt.or lead me to sulking the whole day.
this shouldn't be happening if the hormones levels are still the same as before.
and within these two days, my baby has turn to 17weeks,i guess its really the hormone.
I'm sorry abang for acting emotionally weirdo.
You did nothing wrong and you were absolutely great as always.

"The Society for Women’s Health Research and the National Institute for Mental Health convened a thought leaders’ roundtable in June to discuss current efforts to understand the effects of hormonal transitions, specifically pregnancy, postpartum, and perimenopause, on the occurrence of mood disorders in women."( Science Daily)

"Two main hormones, estrogen and progesterone cause mood swings during pregnancy. Emotions are always unstable and feeling of depression is normal as any other body changes during pregnancy. She may move from great joy to deep despair within fraction of time. A pregnant woman may feel tearful with little cause or no cause at all. She may even find hard to express the reason of joy or despair. This is no psychological problem but; a clear picture of hormonal changes."(Sharon Supriya, April 19 2009)

(Two main hormones, estrogen and progesterone cause mood swings during pregnancy.)

Sunday, October 24, 2010

my lovely sunday

i wake up at 6.30am for subuh prayer as usual but then, i ask permission from my husband to sleep again.heheh..as he's going for jogging at taman tasik titiwangsa..
so i sleep up to 8.00+, when i wake up, my husband is already back from jog..
i quickly make ice milo for him and goreng some karipap and keropok lekor.

then i cook nasi lemak with sambal ikan bilis and sambal sotong for two of us.we had late breakfast at 10.00am and that nasi lemak is also carry forward for lunch time later at 2.00pm.(things seem to be delayed during weekend)

after eating we both started to clean the house. i just do minor chores like sweeping the floor and arrange our folded shirt into the cupboard while m husband manage to vacuum the whole house and clean the newspaper rack.we watch movie at starmovie later before lunch.
after lunch, we spent the whole evening lying at the living room. i read my new novel, eat pray love while my husband watch Korea F1.oh, i also eat some vanilla ice cream while reading.feels so heavenly!

after asar we went out to jusco just to buy some vegetables for dinner.it only take us less than 1hour for traveling return home-jusco...back home i made some keropok lekor goreng and hot tea for my husband's tea time.while i prepare things to cook for dinner which is creamy chicken mushroom carbonara.


n now here i am sitting in front of laptop while watching movie at hbo...and my husband next to me =)...
(happy things does exist on earth if we choose to be happy in any thing we do )

Saturday, October 23, 2010

once the eldest always be the eldest

Parents are now safely arrived and happily doing their ibadah(s) in Madinah. they'll be going to Mecca this 28th October...
Since their departure on Monday night, I have turn myself (automatically) to be a more concern and more responsible sister as I could since Im the eldest and the other three are still studying. I have been calling my youngest brother (Izzat) more than once every day since Tuesday. hearing my voice may make him has a little of comfort i guess since he can't directly communicate to either mum or dad except via sms.the other brother (Imran) is not much to be worry as he's already 19 and can manage himself well enough but I still contact him on and off.

However, the other fella (Amir) who is now studying in MRSM is the one I worry most since I can't directly contact him.what can I do is to wait for him to call me (which has been ages on my own calculation though it just 4days)..Well, not able to talk to someone you care and love and worry most for these amount of days will make you become more worried right? I have been regretting that I didn't pass him enough coins so that he can call me (well, the only source to contact is via public phone)..
but Alhamdulillah, I guess there is still a telepathy between brother-sister and thus he did call me last night which make me feel a big relieve in the heart that I can hear his voice and knowing that he is in good condition. Though the phone call was just 2minutes (not enough coins).

all these while, I am grateful to have my husband all by my side. he's the one who acts more as the eldest in my family though he's not the eldest in his. luckily all three brothers get along well with him. my husband has been hearing my worried(ness) of not be able to contact my second brother every single night and i bet he's the one who feel big relieve when Amir give a call last night.

and this Monday baby and me will be having our fourth scanning at Ampang Puteri. Hope baby is growing well and healthy in mommy's womb.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

the 15th week



Alhamdulillah I have passed my first trimester peacefully and safely.I am lucky because my morning sickness is very mild and I can still travel from KL-Penang and KL-KT safely during the first 12weeks.
The first trimester was very crucial for every pregnancy (from what doctor said and what I read and what elders told me).I went through 4weeks of it (my 5th-9th week) in the month of Ramadhan and Alhamdulillah I had fulfilled the full blessed month of fasting.May Allah accept all my ibadah during the last Ramadhan.Though it was hard to go through the whole day with empty stomach while carrying a baby-to-be and bear all the dizziness of pregnancy, Allah has make it easier for me and my baby.

Through out these 15th weeks of pregnancy, I have experience one night of heavy dizziness where I threw out everything I ate that night and we lying flat after breaking the fast. However, my first trimester morning went quite well. I just threw very2 mild after waking up and it does not give any headache or tiredness. I will always bring plastic bags in my handbag in case feeling like throwing out especially in the car. Oh yes, I spend most of my traveling time by sleeping in the car while my husband driving ....p

I am due for another checkup on 25th October and it will be my 17th week by then. Hope baby is healthy and well developed in my tummy as tummy is growing bigger and bigger day by day..(happiness I cant described here).from my previous checkup,doctor gave me some supplements for the baby's growth which are:-

1)first 12weeks: Acid Folic
2)Calsium: after 12weeks
3)Iron+ Folic:after 12weeks
4)Neuro Gain: after 12weeks

So, I didn't particularly drink Anmum or any other maternity milk product since these supplements are enough as what my doctor said. I am excitedly and patiently enjoying every bits of this pregnancy and yes, i love my baby so much and also the father!:)

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

piece to share

From - http://jajahandoren.blogspot.com/2010/02/isteri-solehah-zikr-isteri-cerdik-yang.html
Isteri cerdik yang solehah,Penyejuk mata, penawar hati, penajam fikiran,Di rumah dia isteri, dijalanan kawan,Diwaktu kita buntu dia penunjuk jalan.

Pandangan kita diperteguhkan,Menjadikan kita tetap pendirian,Ilmu yang diberi dapat disimpan,Kita lupa dia mengingatkan.

Nasihat kita dijadikan pakaian,Silap kita dia betulkan,Penghibur diwaktu kesunyian,Terasa damai bila bersamanya.

Dia umpama tongkat sibuta,Bila tiada satu kehilangan,Dia ibarat simpanan ilmu,Semoga kekal untuk diwariskan.

Terlalu besar pengertian isteri solehah. Tidak dapat diungkap dengan sebaris lagu atau sepotong ayat. Banyak yang perlu dikorbankan. Banyak yang perlu diikhlaskan. Sungguh besar tanggungjawab seorang isteri sehingga Allah s.w.t menjanjikan syurga untuknya.

Benar; ketika para kenalan menegaskan bahawa tugas isteri hanya untuk melayan suami, bukan untuk menjadi khadamnya. Tapi seperti yang pernah aku bahas dan bicarakan dihujung kopi yang masih bersisa; pokok pangkal kepada semua pengorbanan adalah ikhlas. Memasak untuk suami, menjaga makan, pakai, keperluannya adalah ibadah. Pagarlah hati dengan ikhlas, maka kepenatan pulang dari pejabat dan menguruskan urusan rumah tangga akan bertukar nikmat.

Aku kagum dengan kenalan yang tidak pernah meninggikan suara pada suami. Tidak pernah mengatakan tidak atas setiap permintaan suami. Tidak pernah merunggut atau bercerita mengenai kelemahan suami. Hanya yang baik-baik dan indah-indah saja diperdengarkan pada kami. Dia mengandung 4 bulan, dan mempunyai 2 orang anak yang berusia 2 tahun setengah dan setahun. Aku melihat dia mengangkat kepala suami yang sedang tidur tanpa bantal, untuk diletakkan di atas bantal. Kemudian dengan gagahnya dia mengangkat kipas untuk dipasang kerana bimbang kalau-kalau si suami itu akan tidur dalam keadaan kepanasan. Aku membisu kekaguman. Mencermin diri betapa kerdilnya diriku ini. Aku merasakan, aku telah cukup redha terhadap suamiku, ternyata redhaku tidak setanding redha dia.

Kisah benar, yang dicerita oleh mertuaku. Seorang isteri yang santapan hariannya pukulan dan makian. Menyara suami dan anak. Tetapi tidak ada sebarang keluh kesah yang keluar dari mulutnya. Seluruh warga kampung mengasihani takdir si isteri itu. Diakhir hayat suaminya, dia merawati si suami yang menghidapi penyakit kelamin. Dialah isteri dan jururawat. Sehingga si suami itu menghembuskan nafas yang terakhirnya dalam jagaan si isteri yang setia. Tidak beberapa lama kemudian, si isteri pergi menyusul suaminya. Wajahnya bersih kelihatan muda. Setelah dikebumikan, kuburnya bercahaya seperti ada lampu yang menyinari dari liang lahad layaknya. Sehingga pasukan polis terpaksa mengawal rapi perkuburan kerana bimbang kekurafatan berlaku. Setelah 3 hari baru cahaya dari kuburan itu hilang dan penduduk setempat terharu mengenangkan keredhaan si isteri ini. Moga-moga syurga balasannya, ameen.

Aku:Kemarin baru bertanya akan kepergian suamiku dengan nada-nada curiga. Semalam terlupa tidur untuk memeluknya dan memohon ampun. Pagi tadi lewat membancuh kopinya sehingga dia membancuh sendiri, dan bersikap.... ah! Biasalah tu sekali-sekala. Hari ini ku pohon ampun atas kelalaianku menjaga amanat seorang isteri yang terpikul dipundakku tatkala lafaz nikah itu di sahkan.

Suamiku, dikaulah syurgaku. Semoga aku tergolong dikalangan para isteri yang sentiasa menjaga maruah suaminya. Semoga aku tergolong dikalangan isteri-isteri yang sentiasa redha terhadap suaminya. Ameen.