Happy Birthday Ayah

11.11.1958,
the day my Ayah was born.
He was born in Kampung Sungai Seluang, Kulim, Kedah (my kampung now).
Ayah is very outdoor kampung boy. He is intelligent especially in maths and geography but due to very low chances he get when he was young and also due to lack of courage and opportunity, he did not further his study after high school. But he did a very good job teaching all four of us.

I am the first in the family and to be more lucky, the only daughter in the family. so, i know that he will surely loves me to the bottom of his heart. since i was a baby..or maybe since the first day i can memorize moment...i remember, Ayah will sang me a song..it sounded like this

"Anakku Nur Fathiyah dengarlah,
Lagu yang Ayahanda karangi,
Sifatkan laguku ini, sebagai peganti diriku"

There are few more lyrics. this song was a copyright from P.Ramlee film.It means so much to me. Even till now. My dad is very hardworking person. When I was in primary school and when my mum was still working in Butterwoth office, I will have lunch with my dad almost every day. He will bought me 'nasik bungkus' and we will share it together. Such a time to remember.
Then he will accompany me to Kelas Agama in the afternoon while he riding his motrocycle to the office. In the evening, he will take me out to nearby playground or badminton court, or just take me around for sightseeing. My little brother, Imran will also accompany me.

Then, when i went to boarding school after UPSR, (sometime I think that was the craziest thing I did)....he was the happiest person after i annouced my UPSR result and also the offer to TKC. he sacrificed a lot for me to be in that school,not to mentioned how much my mum sacrificed for me. and also my brothers.

And today, 11.11.2009,
My Ayah is celebrating his 51st birthday. Not much for us in the family to celebrate since all of us is currently down with conjunctivitis. We just wish ayah simple wish,pray for his health and happiness, and went out for dinner outside. Though there is nothing fancy for Ayah from me this year, I will buy him something for sure later. But I realized, the current news I told him few days before his 51st birthday was the biggest present to him. I am surely he is more than happy with the news.

And not much to say, I wish my Ayah to have prosperous years ahead, healthier than before, happier than before, and surrounded by everyone he loves and things he likes. Happy Birthday Ayah...

Below is my masterpiece for Ayah 51st Birthday :-

You are the one who holds me when I first arrive in this world,
You are the one who let me hear the Praises for Allah for the first time in my life,
You are the one who named me this name,
You are the one who feel the success when you first look at me,

You are the one who teach me how to cycle,
You are the one who teach me how to say and to write Alif Baa Taa,
You are the one who teach me to climb trees,
You are the one who teach me to eat ikan keli!

You scold me when I was wrong.
You scold me when I say bad things.
You scold me when I get bad result,
And I know you scold me for good reasons.

I want you to be my wali when i get married,
I want you to be the person who send me to my husband,
I want you to hold my first child,
I want to see you go to Hajj,

And for you Ayah..
I love you so much.
Though I rarely show it to you.
Happy 51st Birthday.

with love,
Your daughter

ayam pesamah

learn new recipe from mum today.
we call it ayam pesamah..or maybe ayam negro? sbb kaler hitam.:P

very simple tp ayah ckp sedap:D

ingredients:
1: pieces of chicken..
2: rempah kari ayam
3: kicap manis cap kipas udang
4: serai sebatang
5: halia siket
6: sos cili maggi
7: garam siket
8: bawang putih
9: daun kari
10: potatoes (cut into cubes)

method:
1: firstly, mix all ingredients (no 2-9) in one bowl.put some water.just a bit.
2: let the ingredient mix well for 5-10 minutes.
2: panaskan kuali.masukkan siket minyak and campurkan all the mixture.
3: then put the chicken and potatoes.
4: wait for 10-14minutes.check if the chicken is well cook or not.
5: then serve with white rice.
sedapppp:D:D:D
3:

mum

i really miss my mum now.
i want to sleep next to her.
i want to cuddle her.
i want to talk to her.
i want her.

i miss u mum.

ain't life wonderful?

this one whole week has been very packed and busy for me. i got my presentation topic on Tuesday and has to present it by 9.00am Thursday morning which me I have less than 48hours to prepare for the test. So, struggling begin since Tuesday night. Both me and my very best person stay up in the office for both Tuesday and Wednesday night.

Presenting the muting test on Thursday morning was a big relieved to me. All the pain i felt on my neck gone right after the presentation though it wasn't a good one. Thank God it was done. Right after office hour on Thursday, I do the thing I enjoy most--> Swimming! again, another relieved and relaxing moment of the week after whole load stress I felt since Monday!

And Saturday (today) is a best day even though it is tiring! Guest what? I went out for a nature walk plus minus 16km in MacRitchie Reservoir with my favorite person in the world. Oh, i like outdoor activities more and more know since it is worth sharing this interest with someone worth to live with. Even it is very tiring but I can really make a statement that it is worth it. I enjoyed the walk very much, seeping the fresh air from the nature, breezing through the soft clean wind and smells the green leaves and trees around the reservoir.! oh I loike!

Well, life is happening in each way. life is a combination of love, hard work, sensitivity, toleration, kindness and supporting. and my life is very wonderful though there are always ups and downs that making me today.

no title

honestly...

i cant say this to no one.

i know i cant because no one will understand,

so i will write it.

at least i didn't say it verbally.

im afraid.

afraid of boredom in human.

particularly in a person.

in that person.

and also in myself.

i want the spark..

forever.

i want the cheers

forever..

i want the light

forever..

and i always want to be

s.p.e.c.i.a.l

forever...

-amin-

message for girlsss

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

the dizzyness

feeling very dizzy right now. maybe its the symptoms of fever i got from encik Ah Leng...
but I don't mind, at least I have some one to look after me if I fall sick now...

esok i will be off to Ipoh for geology field trip sponsored by UTP..

ok...night...