At 38week 1day

Untuk menikmati sesuatu nikmat dari Allah, kita harus bersabar. Itu kata-kata pemujuk hati sekarang ni. Ikutkan perut yang makin hari makin berat ni, rasa nak deliver bila-bila masa saja. But I have to be patient and enjoy my last 13 days of pregnancy dengan lebih tenang dan bersabar. Due date 24 January 2013. Another 13 days more. Tak lama dah tu, tapi waktu-waktu macam ni, masa terasa berjalan dengan sgt2 slow. Setiap kali ke toilet, hati berdebar-debar, dah turun tanda ke belum. 

Kalau update status di fb, ramai dah tersalah erti ingt dah dlm labour. No, not yet. Ikut kata Babycenter, after 38 weeks, waiting game pun bermula. Yes, it is a waiting game indeed. Tunggu masa kata orang melayu. 

I think I have settled most of the things, especially dari segi pelajaran. Dari segi persiapan baby pun InsyaAllah dah ready. I mean, right now mmg dah malas nak pikir about study. I think, I want to take a rest. Lepas pantang, I will start again, with full of spirit daripada 2 orang permata hati, InsyaAllah. Cuma, takut juga, mampu ke nak handle 2 orang anak kecil and pelajaran sendiri? Luckily, I'm not working anymore. So, masa yang ada mmg hanya untuk anak-anak, suami dan my study. Alhamdulillah jugak, urusan MyBrain15 dah selesai. Dah terima surat pengesahan dan dah settle dealing with graduate school. Nanti lepas pantang, dah tak perlu jadi graduate assistance @ tutor lagi. So, can focus more on my research. 

Sebab entry ni ialah entry membebel, so kita tengok dulu gambar Ilyaas pagi tadi. My BoboiBoy. Dia panggil adik dalam perut Yaya. :P My boy is growing so fast. Terasa lagi sakit melahirkan dia. Terasa lagi mcm mana nak berhenti jantung ni berdegup masa Ilyaas kena fit last year. You have teach me a lot sayang. I love you so much, you are my first love!.

Ok sambung balik bebelan dan kerisauan....

Lepas pantang nnt, mcm-mcm nak kena buat. I'll need to go to Miri for sort of attachment with Shell. Harap tak lama. sehari dua cukupla. Harap boleh bawa anak-anak. Kalau tak pun, nak bawa baby. I might need to  join a field trip to Niah and kawasan sekitarnya. Mulanya, kena ke Sabah jugak, tp I plan to decline that trip. I can't afford to leave my kids for too long. Plus, ni bukan trip duduk hotel, attend meeting or bengkel. Ni trip keluar masuk National Park, naik boat perhaps, pakai life jacket, usung geological hammer, compas, boots etc. Mungkin tidur dalam khemah, or if I'm lucky dapat tidur dalam motel/chalet. And for sure I'll need to carry a breast pump and storage bottles with me together with other items. And need to explain to my supervisor and the team that I'll need few times a day during the trip to express out my breast milk. Of course, those milk yang di express during field trip terpaksa dibuang. I probably will only chill milk yang I express during the night time. Itupun kalau motel (if dpt motel) ada kemudahan peti ais or freezer. Kalau takde, dengan sedih I'll have to let go all of them. Kalau boleh, I don't want to go for the field trip. Attachment with Shell takpe. Sebab it's in a decent place, decent location. Working environment is different dari field environment. 

But, it's months away. So, biar kerisauan ni setakat ni saja. When the times come, I will have to face it and handle it wisely. I will need help from many sides, my husband, my parents, my parents in law, babysitter, supervisor, and field trip team. Apart from that, my husband and I also looking for opportunity to attend conference or presentation. So that we can present/publish our research. Cita2 tinggi, tp research baru tahap awal lagi. Aim high, tak salah kan. 

Ilyaas sekarang ni, Alhamdulillah, sgt rajin tengok buku. Sampaikan, we both husband and wife kadang2 rasa boring melayan minat dia pada buku. Tak baik pulak kan mcm tu. Patutnya support la Ilyaas. Bukan apa, time nak tidur tu, dia akan bawa masuk 3-4 jenis buku and make sure I read all of them.berulang-ulang kali. Sampai dia tertidur. Sometime, satu page kena baca banyak2 kali, sebab dia suka page tu. Boring laaaaa.. Plus, I'm already tired and sleepy. Dia tak nak ayah dia bacakan. Nak umi jugak bacakan. N kalau ada sound effect like bunyi ambulans or bunyi monkey, dia akan lagi happy. Ada satu masa tu, I was very-very tired. Tertidur dulu masa reading session with him. Last-last, dia keluar ke ruang tamu, meniarap mcm kat gambar atas ni, and continue reading by himself. bukan nya reading pun, belek-belek gambar. It was already 12am masa tu. Well, it's me yang start kan dia bedtime story since dia kecik. So, tak bleh nak salahkan dia bila dia jadi addicted mcm tu. Perhaps, the timing yang tak kena kot, he's excited, while I am tired and lazy. Hahahha. Apepun syukur, dia lebih minat pada buku dari gadgets. Walaupun ada masa dia mintak jugak hp untuk tgk youtube or main flash cards dalam hp. 

That's all for now.makin lama, makin mengarut bebelan ni. Bye. Perut mengeras, tp tak tau nak kata contraction ke tak. K bye lagi. 

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